Say won't you Say

Change

" To everything there is a Season, and a time to every purpose under heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:1



I have become accustom to the fact that from here on out in life change is going to be unavoidable. I've been having trouble lately in trying to figure out how to balance relationships and different seasons of life. I was saddend yesterday in reading the words of my dear friend Kim who is still very much mourning the death of her daddy and continues to feel pain and saddness everyday that I cannot even fathom. I think about her and pray for her all the time. Not being close to her, Katie, and Abby right now is hard for me. I grew up with these amazing girls and all four of us are in different places leading four completely different lives and it would be virtually impossible for each of us to fully grasp everything that is going on in each others lives all the time, but I feel as though I have failed as a friend, I havent kept faithful contact with them since we all last saw each other for kim's dad's funeral. Although it does take work on both parts, I feel like Kim needed me and I wasnt there. I am thankful that she has these women in here life in College Station who are so faithful to her and to the Lord who can be there for her and encourage her on a daily basis. I can't go back and change things now, but I can change future actions of being a better friend for the future. I hope to spend time with them before I leave for California~I miss my girls and truly have a desire to keep an authentic relationship with each of them. God is bigger than location and true friendships will sustain no matter what, of this I am sure!

It's always hard to leave the amazing friends I have here at school for so long in the summer when I have seen these people nearly everyday for months. You always wonder what the fall will hold. These friendships that you have invested so much of yourself into, you wonder if they will look different when you come back. Then what about new friends that will come in the fall and friends who are graduating and leaving and moving onto the next season of their lives, how are those things going to affect the way my life will look as I begin my first Senior Year of college ( yes unfortunately there will be 2 Sr. years~but i'm ok with it). What about new friends I will make this summer as I go on Project, where are those going to fit into my life when I get back to school? I wish someone had the secret to this balancing act of relationships in life. I long to be faithful and loyal in all of my relationships, but I am not quite sure I know exactly what that's supposed to look like all the time, I am still trying to figure it out. I love this season of life in college and wouldn't trade this time and every single person that I've had the pleasure of getting to know during these years for anything! And while I know that Change is necessary and usually ends up being very good, It's still not easy or at least not in my experience. I have seen the Lord be extremely faithful in times of change in my past many times, So I have no doubt that He's going to work it all out. In the words of the great Sheryl Crow, "I said a Change will do you good, A Change will do you good!" Much Love, ~A

posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 12:10 AM