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the joy of birthdays...

This week has just been full of birthdays as September always is. This week was one of my brothers, one of my sisters, my roomate, and my good friend Marisa's birthdays! So exciting that so many great people were born all in one month! We went to eat, just the girls for corrie and marisa's birthdays last night to Johnny Carinos and then to a surprise party for corrie, and then to watch the great Josh Thomas perform at open Mic night at George's. It was a fun night.

God has been teaching me a lot about growth and responsibility and trust. It sounds like a lot and it feels like its even more than that, and while its sometimes hard, i know its good. I sometimes feel a lot of pressure on me to always be the best friend, roomate, daughter, student, in any and every circumstance, and when i think like that I always end up feeling disappointed, like I have missed the mark somehow, and thats probably because I have. I've never been a perfectionist so much as a people pleaser, but now I learning that the only person I really have to please is the Lord, and He knows I'm so far from perfection and is willing to forgive me and give me a little push everytime I feel inadequate or weak. I pride myself on being a loyal friend and I'm having trouble finding a balance in relationships right now.

I really miss Kim and Katie and Abby and havent seen any of them all summer long and I am longing to spend some time with those girls, they are so important to me, and yet my actions would speak otherwise. They are my oldest and dearest friends that I have grown up with, and luckily I am not worried of the status of our relationship, that isnt the problem, i honestly miss them so much! I have not been very faithful about keeping in touch with people from Summer Project. I have my weekly phone date with Dawn, but other than that it has been superficial IM convos over Aim, and I havent even talked to my roomates, the girls I lived with for 10 weeks and discipled for 5 weeks! I feel aweful about that.

My relationships here at school have been ok, I am just trying to figure out where the Lord wants my focus to be right now. I've just started meeting new girls who are getting involved in biblestudy and Cru and just started Discipling Sarah a girl in my bible study, and I have such a heart for girls on my campus. My roomates are awesome, although I have no idea what Corrie and I are going to do when Bri graduates in December! Sad! I am just trying to figure out where my priorities are and where they need to be right now and its so hard. I need to go home sometime soon too, i'm sure my family would appreciate seeing me for more than a day!

posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 9:49 PM