Say won't you Say

The Beginning of the End

Today was the hardest day of project yet. I woke up really sick this morning due to lack of sleep and not eating right I'm sure, and headed this morning with my co-workers to have brunch with our boss. When we returned to our apartments it was only to find that one of my roomates Jessica's stuff was all packed up and she was departing from Newport Project 05 indefinitely. I helped her load her stuff up into her car and gave her the biggest goodbye hug ever and all I could say as the tears streamed down both of our faces was " I'm going to miss you..." I now have an empty bed in my room here and I dont like it. I know we are all leaving on Saturday and there are many more goodbyes to come, but today it really sank in that this is all almost over; that the best summer of my life thus far, also the most amazing experience I've ever had will be coming to an end in just a few days.

I am an emotional wreck esspecially with goodbyes. Tomorrow will be even worse than today was. I am going with some of my friends to take my good friend Zach to the airport as he departs project early as well. He and I have become so close over the course of the summer. We worked together all summer long, we had Impact group together for the first 5 weeks, and because we are the same age and have the same major, I think we instantly had a connection. He has become like a brother to me and I have honestly never met anyone like him and there will never be anyone like him in my life again, he is most definitely an irreplacable, one of a kind. He is flying home to Wisconsin and its sad to know that tomorrow I wont be going to work and spending the day making fun of him and the crazy things that come out of his mouth, and singing John Mayer at the top of our lungs, and feeling completely comfortable talking to him about anything and everything. I will miss this boy so much.

Friends from school who wet on projects last year tried to tell me about this part of project; warn me that this would happen......that I wouldnt want to leave these people and that saying goodbyes would be so terrible, but no one couldve prepared me for the reality of the awefulness that is occuring here at the seastar apartments in Newport Beach California throughout this next week.

posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 11:18 PM