and now...
Tonight at bible study we did a character study on Solomon in Ecclesiastes (tricky word to say multiple times in an hour in a half span). That time with my girls made the awfulness of the last two days seem very minimal indeed. I just kept thinking about 30 minutes before I headed over to LBJ this afternoon to have discipleship with one of my girls and then to attempt to facilitate this amazing group of women...How am I going to do this today? I spoke with Him for that 30 minute window of free time, my only free time since 8:00am this morning....I pleaded for energy, and wisdom, and a spirit of caring and encouragement. He was faithful to supply more than enough. Afterwards, I had to seriously reflect on the last couple of days and regroup.I now see that, wishing for May to come when I am done with classes, or for the time to come when I am finally an art teacher, rather than a student, or when I just get married, then I'll be satisfied....Those things will bring new longings and a whole new set of struggles and issues to work through. I haven't got it all figured out by any means, but my goal is to rejoice in the now, to look to Him more and stronger when I feel burned out and overwhelmed.
Solomon, oh so wise:
" What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has set eternity in the hearts of man; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." Ecclesiastes 3:9-11
posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 10:00 PM
3 Comments:
yes, i am very guilty of creating scenarios in my head. "scenarios of liberation" is what i like to call them. basically, they consist of being somewhere else, doing something else - or perhaps being someone else. at times in my life i have pursued these scenarios and have found that my pursuit was less about the content of the goal and more about the fact that i had a goal in the first place.
this is tough, my friend. agreed.
and i choose "liberation" because i always reason that the current circumstances must be the cause for oppression, and nothing intrinsically about me as a person.
this is what i ultimately fail to see most of the time.
Thank you for your kind, empathetic words.....scenarios of liberation, indeed. :-)
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