Say won't you Say

You got the Wrong Girl

Birthdays and Barbeque, both great reasons for people to get together! I had a lot of fun hanging with people last night, many old friends and a few new. An angel of mercy took over my babysitting duties for the evening so that I was able to be sociable, which I desperately needed. I knew the evening had to have been going to well and that it was just a short matter of time before something would be said or done to bring it down. A couple of things, one, my own grudge holding, and bad attitude towards someone who hurt someone who I care about a lot and me having to act like nothing is wrong in order to keep peace, I did a good job of, and I am learning that I can't fix everything; some things just have to work themselves out and need time. Next, having some hurt pride and feelings towards someone who I wasnt expecting to see, but did. It's amazing how well I do when the whole "out of sight, out of mind" thing is working; but once in sight, slowly starts coming back to mind. It ended up being fine, God has changed my heart a whole lot on that matter, but hey I am still a girl! And finally, but certainly not to be given less credit for putting a damper on my night than it deserves......there is this tricky spot that had arisen in my life over the month or so that I am having trouble dealing with. Let's just say I am not used to number 1, dealing with socially awkward people on a personal level and on an almost daily basis; number 2, attempting friendship with a boy and having them i guess misread those intentions for somthing else?

Last night was the icing on the cake. Who I thought was a shy, hardly speaks a word, but sure does give a lot of looks guy turned into Mr. Talks Alot last night and decided to inform me of feelings and thoughts towards me, in front of other people mind you, Completely embarrassing and awkward. I am horrible at dealing with stuff like that. Although I am aware that I am not the first girl to be dealt with in the manner from him, I sure hope I am the last and that no longer will he choose to act this way towards other inocent girls, merely trying to attempt friendship with someone of the opposite sex. I guess I really just dont understand. I mean for me a fondness or attraction has to be developed over time of talking with the person and finding out all about them, but in this case neither of those things has happend, which lets me know that this cant last too much longer because its not even legit. Oh Geez.... Well, All together though the evening was a success and lots of fun!

posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 2:52 PM