Say won't you Say

Today started a little flustering with Bri calling me at 6am my time b/c she moved into our new apartment today, and then with being frantically rushed to work with Dawn as she woke up about 9:40 when she was supposed to be at work at 7:30 this morning, so we hurried to get her set up and it was just a crazy way to start the day. I thoroughly enjoyed my convo with my sweet Lindsey Mika this morning too, always a pleasure my dear! Then I def had one of the busiest days at work yet today, which was insane for it being a Monday! If I see one more Balboa Bar..... Bad news bears! hahahaha Then I had Chinese food Monday d-time with Anna which is always a highlight of my week. We then had our Action group leaders meeting, which was a really encouraging time for me, and I really love that time to connect with all the other girl bible study leaders.

My mind is kinda all over the place right now. I feel a little not quite myself right now. I dunno if its just me being tired and irritable, but I feel like parts of me are missing. I'm desperately missing Art, looking at it and creating it. It's been 7 weeks and that is a huge part of myself that I've been neglecting this whole time. The Lord loves to stir my heart with Art and I miss that! I'm also really feeling disconnected from my family, which I hate. I talk to my mom almost everyday, many times more than once a day, but I just feel like my brothers and sisters are all growing up so fast and I am missing out on such crucial times of their lives.

I'm really torn on all my emotions that are rising with Project right now. With 3 weeks left I just feel really sad knowing that there are some people here that I will never see again, and others that I will want to see so badly, and will struggle to keep up with, but will inevitable not be the same with them as we are here ever again. I new all of this coming into project, but I didn't know how close I would get to some of these people. I know the Lord is preparing me for the end now b/c I am such a rollercoaster of emotions that I need that extra prep time, I love that He knows me so well inside and out!=) Off to bed for now, I have the day off tomorrow and am hopefully going to do to something terribly fun!Ciao for now!

posted by Amanda Michelle Morrison @ 12:06 PM